Finding

I dream sweet dreams
But not of myself
I dream of worship
that will never
come
For I have never
worshiped myself
This makes me
wonder
I pick up hobbies
When I am not good
When they are not
easy
I throw them away
They do not bring
me a love I
desire
Do I seek love
It does not
seem
It doesn't make you
a narcissist to love
yourself
I don't want to
keep developing interests
to just give them up
I deserve more
Dream a little dream of me

Awaken

The wind whispers and tickles my nose
Perhaps you are expecting almighty prose
No. It is just I. The one who occasionally
attempts to create.
Though I am no ethereal one.
There is nothing I can do for you
I cannot bring back what has been lost
Though perhaps I am someone
you remembered from a distant dream
I hope I can help you somehow
to awaken forgotten desires
dream a little dream of me.

Inbetween

Stuck between two worlds
Needing to acknowledge the shift
In my mind
Longing to tell you a truth
Not wanting to subsist on
Approval
Slipping between two worlds
Wondering where I best fit
Too afraid to speak
A child with clipped wings
When I say I don't know
I really do
I'm just not sure what you'll
Do once I tell you
Cracking, cracking
I am only meant for one world
I know you'll still love me if I go
I don't want to argue with you
Part of me not wanting to say
Goodbye
But I feel one way is strong and true
One way is freedom
I remember what you told me
But I believe you have forgotten
I don't want to confront you
It was so long ago
You can love outside the confines of
Rules
Though I know you love me
All it ever did was trap
What am I outside the trap
I guess there will only be one way to know